Single Mom Christmas-Some words of Encouragement
Single Mom Christmas
I’m sitting here on my laptop, the Sunday before Christmas
Eve. My feet are throbbing as they have been for 4 days. My husband is still
sleeping in. Tomorrow I will work another 10-11 hours on my feet without a
break or even lunch- just like the past few days. I’m not complaining. I’m
simply explaining the dynamics of the holiday season for people like me.
I work retail. And Christmas is 2 days away.
I have worked retail for over 7 years now at the same place.
BUT this year, is the first year in all that time, that I am not single.
So, unlike other years- I’m writing to you. Single moms.
I would have never done so before.
Did you know that “Holiday Music” gives me anxiety; I
associate it with upset clients, long hours, working to make ends meet, paying
bills in addition to providing Christmas gifts for my kids and being soo exhausted
that in past years I have cried in the mornings as I get ready to go to work.
I remember last year on the way to work, I was feeling sorry
for myself having to work Christmas eve, and decided to go through the Taco
Bell Drive through to get a burrito as breakfast. The woman who stood at the
window was my age. She was friendly and efficient. As I drove away- I remember
thinking that she was probably a single mom just like me and while I was
feeling sorry for myself- she may have been too- but she was pleasant all the
same- and while I had the luxury of selling diamonds on Christmas eve- she was
doing food service.
One isn’t better than the other- but I changed my attitude
and felt GRATEFUL that I had the career I do.
There’s an army of single moms out there making the world go
round, making ends meet, working the shifts no one else wants- because we will
do whatever it takes- to give our kids Christmas.
So, I’m just writing to tell you single moms; “It’s okay.”
Other people won’t get it.
Married couples; families with stay at home Moms who bake
cookies and complain about their spouses while they have the freedom to “Mom”
and their food and shelter is paid for by someone else’s career. Families who
see each other in the evenings because they aren’t working their second or
third job. School teachers who send home “extra” fun suggestions for kid’s
activities to do with their parents in the Holiday Season during their “days
off” from school.
Those 2 parent families, who at the end of long days have
someone to lie next to while they sleep or wake up to and kiss goodbye. Those
who have the safety of a partner if a “bad guy” breaks in at night or they hear
an unexplained noise.
They don’t get it who haven’t walked this path.
The path of knowing that if the bills aren’t paid by you-
they aren’t getting paid. That in the life boat, you are the one rowing and
bucketing out water during the storms to make sure that you and your kids stay
afloat.
Seeing your kids struggle emotionally or academically and
not having the free time or resources to support them. Kissing their foreheads
as they are already asleep after you have come home, and seeing their crayon
picture from school that day on the counter in the kitchen where the dishes are
waiting for you to wash.
Working relentlessly and seeing your children grow as if
they are behind a wall of glass to you. Wanting to be there more, love more,
interact more- and yet in order for them to have the necessities of life- you
must keep going. Trusting in God and trusting your strength will hold out.
Christmas is a challenge for you. I know.
Bills and time management is a feat of juggling throughout
the year- let alone finding the cash to make sure that there are gifts beneath
the tree.
Knowing that on January 2nd when the kids go back
to school- all their classmates ask: “What did Santa get you???” and knowing
that your kids were good too, on the “Nice” list too- but they didn’t get the
video game system or living room full of gifts the way that Hallmark Movie kids
do.
So, we do EVERYTHING we can. We shop at thrift stores on the
way to or from work, hand make hats or put toys on layaway in October. We save
our dimes and nickels and quarters in a jar all year… take overtime, working
with hurt feet and miss evening Holiday parties- so our kids will have
Christmas.
And we do it. YOU do it (with the grace of God) We ALWAYS
make sure there’s something. It may not be the Hawaii trip or the four-wheeler
in the driveway with a red bow- but our kids have something. They run into the
living room and see their stockings filled with dollar store knick knacks and
eat chocolate covered marshmallo santas.
The bills are paid, the heat is on, there’s eggs in the
fridge for breakfast.
Often, our ONLY gift is the ornament they made in school
that year with their school picture on it. And we hang it on the tree.
Santa brings single moms things like “shampoo” or “deodorant”
things that are necessary- and we smile as if it were the diamond tennis
bracelets that other women get from their “Santa’s.”
Because in the end, it doesn’t really matter.
For the first time in 8 years I’m not alone for Christmas
and as I sit here and reflect on past years- my heart is full and I am thinking
of you.
So, if I can offer anything- it’s the knowledge that you are
strong. We are a new breed of women. Women who are the backbone of society.
Teaching our children that while we may not be there every day in person- that
we will give and do anything it takes to survive and make sure that they do.
Our kids are learning not to be materialistic and what TRULY
Matters. I also think that our kids are watching our struggle and SEE the value
of FAMILY unlike those who have it set. They know that 2 parent families aren’t
a given- and HOPEFULLY when it comes time to find a partner in life they will be
wiser than many of us were.
Remember that when you feel the most alone, you are
surrounded by Angels. Being single as long as I was and surviving alone as long
as I was- I learned to have FAITH that things would work out. And they do.
Bills being unpaid or collectors calling don’t have the
power to keep you from loving your kids or hugging them at the end of the day-
and that is what they will remember.
Most kid’s toys are in the garbage by the next Christmas- so
if you can’t do a big Christmas- you’re just saving space in the landfill ;)
and you know what? Kids don’t associate toys with LOVE- they associate the way
you speak to them, laugh with them, and recognize the great things in them. Do
that- those things are all free.
You may or may not ever have a partner- and THAT’s OKAY!
You can, and we can build lives that are fulfilling and free
and financially abundant regardless.
Remember that this struggle is only temporary. Remember that
those who have not walked that path of being a single mom won’t get it.
Forgive them for the insensitive and unkind things they say
or do.
You are stronger than they are. You had the strength to
leave, to face the unknown, to survive and to carry your babies in your arms as
you fight the battle of life.
You have the gift of learning self-reliance unlike most-
learning to resolve your emotional hurt, stress, struggle through your own self
work… (and great friends!) You are learning to be creative in the way that most
people will never have the chance to- because SINGLE MOMs ALWAYS find a way to
make rent, assist with science projects, fill Christmas stockings, change their
car oil, and budget.
Jesus made fish and loaves multiply- Single moms do the
same. ;)
Christmas is 2 days away.
Remember you are not alone.
Remember that you are the women who are teaching the next
generation.
Remember that it will ALL BE OKAY.
You are not forgotten.
You are powerful. You are strong. You are beautiful. You are
sovereign. WE SEE YOU- WE HONOR YOU.
I partnered with other women to tell their stories of motherhood, the stories that aren't shared with badges and ribbons, in a book titled Unspoken Motherhood. Stories of PostPartum, Miscarriage, Child loss, adoption, and more.
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